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        <p>Final</p>
<p>医生和护士离开的时候，躺在床上的老者已经没有了生命迹象。</p>
<p>套在他头上和身上的各种设备都被取走，</p>
<p>露出来的是一张安详且平静的脸。</p>
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<p>这种表情……她只见过那么一两次。</p>
<p>也可能就是这一两次，</p>
<p>给她留下了难以磨灭的印象。</p>
<p>她偶尔会想……</p>
<p>在这个大多数人都出卖灵魂的时代，</p>
<p>——为什么自己能撑到现在才考虑呢?</p>
<p>这不是一句“有洁癖”就可以解释的。</p>
<p>不过看到那个死去老者的脸，她终于想起来了。</p>
<p>刚刚工作的那年邱琳也见过一位辞世的老者，他脸上也有同样的表情。</p>
<p>不是高兴也不是悲哀，而是安详。</p>
<p>安详的背后是故事……那个人已经和他的故事和解。</p>
<p>这种和解，只有灵魂完整的人才能做到。</p>
<p>于是邱琳注销了灵魂理财账户，</p>
<p>虽然这让她感觉损失了一大笔钱。</p>
<p>在她注销账户前，</p>
<p>那段记忆已经升值到了二十万。</p>
<p>至于为什么值这么多钱，小陆的解释是：</p>
<p>相关机构不想让你记得这件事，它会“影响大众对贩卖记忆的热情”。</p>
<p>几个月后。</p>
<p>邱琳的生活又回到了之前的样子。</p>
<p>她努力工作玩命赚薪水，然后分期买裙子买护肤品。</p>
<p>偶尔去酒吧……但再也没约哪个男人回去。</p>
<p>“邱邱琳!”</p>
<p>正在发呆的时候，玛丽兴奋地拍了她一下。</p>
<p>“有人找你，是个帅哥!”</p>
<p>“……啊?”</p>
<p>“是不是你在酒吧认识的?居然把男人带到公司，真厉害——”</p>
<p>“我又不是你……”</p>
<p>带着疑惑，邱琳走到了公司门口。</p>
<p>在那儿等着她的是位板着扑克牌脸的男人。</p>
<p>“哟。”</p>
<p>“……是你?”</p>
<p>“没想到你真的把账户注销了。”</p>
<p>“嗯，我感觉自己还是不太适合去卖……”</p>
<p>“行吧，虽然会穷一点。”</p>
<p>小陆的脸上挤出了僵硬的笑容，</p>
<p>然后从背后的大包里拿了些什么。</p>
<p>“这个给你。”</p>
<p>“……给我?”</p>
<p>“花玲老师嘱咐的，如果你不再卖灵魂就把这个送给你。”</p>
<p>邱琳接过小陆手里的东西，那是一个透明的盒子。</p>
<p>盒子里满是泥土……看颜色是没有被污染过的天然土壤，</p>
<p>虽然没查过，可邱琳知道这一盒价格不菲。</p>
<p>“这是什么?土?”</p>
<p>“土里面有昙花的种子。”</p>
<p>“——哎!?”</p>
<p>“本来是准备留给那个人的，不过他已经死了。”</p>
<p>“…………”</p>
<p>“怎么，不想要?那就卖掉它吧。”</p>
<p>“这一盒比你的灵魂值钱多了。”</p>
<p>“我又没说要卖掉!”邱琳有些生气地喊道。</p>
<p>“只是……花玲老师为什么要送我这个?”</p>
<p>“因为你不会忘掉它，就这样。”小陆的回答很简单。</p>
<p>“可是……”邱琳刚想问更多，但站在她面前的人已经不见了。</p>
<p>小陆没等邱琳问别的就离开了。</p>
<p>其实邱琳还有很多想知道，</p>
<p>比如花玲老师的近况……那些明信片后来怎么了。</p>
<p>可她看了看手里的这盒子东西，又觉得问什么都是多余的。</p>
<p>她沉默了一阵，然后看着泛黄的天空，</p>
<p>想了想自己未来会变成什么样子。</p>
<p>她思考着等自己老了身体不便……还没钱治疗的时候会做些啥。</p>
<p>似乎除了买到正版的幸福药自我了断，没有别的选择。</p>
<p>所以有没有一种可能，让她和这个世界多一些联系?</p>
<p>在自己行将就木之时能有些牵挂，而不是急着去死?</p>
<p>她突然有点想和谁建立更亲密的关系，而不是随便风流一晚就忘掉。</p>
<p>憧憬能被谁当做“重要的人”，虽然她不清楚这样有什么用处。</p>
<p>“…………….”</p>
<p>等回过神来的时候天已经有点黑了，好像是要下雨。</p>
<p>她只能叹了口气，无奈地往回走。</p>
<p>盒子比想象的重一些，</p>
<p>这让她不停地变换抱盒子的姿势，不时低头看看。</p>
<p>不过就在她某次低头的瞬间，有颗很细小的嫩芽从土里钻出。</p>
<p>嫩芽就像个顽皮的孩子，在盒子里冲她微笑。</p>
<p>“那就先把你养大吧。”</p>
<p>邱琳对着盒子回应了一个笑脸。</p>
<p>昙花要养很长时间，而且开花后几个小时就会凋谢。</p>
<p>但为了那短短的几个小时拼命努力，或许也是种不错的体验。</p>
<p>“……不，不对。”</p>
<p>邱琳摇了摇头。</p>
<p>“就是不开花也没关系。”</p>
<p>她想起了那张还躺在抽屉里的明信片。</p>
<p>……开花也好不开花也好，开花后瞬间凋谢也好。</p>
<p>反正都是只属于邱琳的回忆，是她独有的故事。</p>
<p>有了故事，人就有了灵魂。</p>
<p>　　</p>
<p>而且，这段灵魂是无价的。</p>
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